Every Morning.

If you’re anything like myself, you are someone who enjoys his or her sleep.

Well, I recently started a whole new graduate school program and it is INTENSE. I have officially started PA school, therefore, I’m head over heels in work and studying. I quit all my jobs so I could focus on school…

But every morning I wake up, and think the same thing. “I wish this was over”, “I just want to sleep more”, “Do I really need to get up?” “whyyyyy?!”

However, once I get up, make my coffee, sit in bed and read the news and get ready, I feel a little bit better. JOKES. I still would do just about anything to crawl right back into bed and drift away to dream land.

Once I park my car in the parking lot and begin walking (a pretty long walk), I seem to find myself doing the same thing each day. Without even realizing it. As I have my music playing in my headphones, I look up at the sky, whether its sunny, partly cloudy, or just gloomy. I look up and I thank God that I have made it through another night to another blessed day. I look up and tell myself I will make myself and all my loved ones proud of who I am.

I didn’t realize until today that this became a habit for me. I also didn’t realize that it made me look forward to my future, both immediate and long-term. I walked a little bit more confidently with my chin up.

Now the key is to have a killer playlist and to always face up. and SMILE!

Smile because you have made it through to another day, another day to better yourself and work towards something great, your accomplishments.

Best of luck, rockstars! 🙂

Xxo K.

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Candid

Be natural.

Make sure I look oblivious to

Those incredibly high defined lens and

The sudden flash of light

It’s a candid picture.

Make sure it’s the right angle though,

Oh, and don’t forget to get the lighting right.

Is my smile weird? You know what,

Let’s try again.

Remember, it’s a candid pic

So make it look natural.

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I can dream

I can make a world

Endless for you and me

 

I can draw

The scene so vibrant and serene

I can write words that

flow around, within, and between

You and me

 

Sounds sprinkle butterflies

and lovely knots

deep within my stomach

 

I can dream a world

swelled with love and bliss

But. 

that is all that I can do.

It’s all a dream.

Save Time, Just Be Honest

So many things go on in everyone’s lives and things get messy. One thing I’ve learned in my recent years is that honesty is honestly annoying, but it ends up coming up anyway. Whether you’re lying for your own benefits or for someone else’s with a white lie or whether you’re pushing back the inevitable, horrid conversation for another time with lies…. just stop.

If you’re protecting someone with a white lie, you know that eventually the truth will come out. Does it really benefit the person to continue on with false hope only to be hurt later?

If you’re purposely lying to save your own ass, well same thing… in every scenerio the truth comes out, sooner or later.

Make it sooner. Save time, just be honest. It may hurt and it may be shitty, but in the end, you’ll be happy you did what you did, especially when you did it. Relationships can mend over time and time heals. So stop saving it for later, you’re only hurting yourself and those afflicted by the lie.

I’m A Headless Chicken

Hi loves! How’s it going? It’s been a while, huh? Yeah… I recently graduate from undergraduate studies and now I’m running around like a chicken without a head *hence the title* 

Ever since graduation, I left on vacation and then once I came back, I went straight into work…. and by that I mean working multiple part time jobs and taking a genetics course. Sounds like fun? Well, it actually kind of is.

I am the kind of person who can only last so long binge-watching Netflix series or laying in bed all day. It drives me nuts when I’m in one place for too long, if there isn’t something I’m working on. Therefore, having all these jobs and taking my class is actually a good thing for me. Granted, I’m exhausted and I sleep by 9pm, but I’m on a schedule and I love it.

Annnyyywhoo. Just wanted to say “I’m back”, I’ll be writing here and there and hopefully, I’ll be putting up some good stuff! Let’s talk about whatever…. comment and I’ll post about a comment if you’re up for it!

Xo.

Filling a Void

You don’t know what you have until it’s gone…. we’ve all heard this before, somewhere, somehow. What sucks is that it is one hundred percent true.

Don’t worry, nothing drastic has happened to me. However, I am finding myself missing someone and after a bit of time, I have been catching myself doing things that are unlike myself, but more like him.

Small and insignificant (to the third person looking in on this) things that are more like his character. I love myself some ice cream, but I’m not a big sprinkles fan…. I know, I know, what is wrong with me, right?! I just haven’t been really into sprinkles, but today I put a whole handful of rainbow sprinkles on my ice cream and I loved it.

We used to punch each other while driving while playing the *punch buggy, no punch backs* game. And now every time I see a Volkswagen buggy, I just find myself laughing and wincing, anticipating a little punch on my arm…. But it doesn’t happen because he’s not here right now.

I guess I’m just trying to fill a void by doing these little things for now. Don’t we all try to color in the blank voids of our lives? What else would you do with a blank canvas besides have fun and make art?

I Just Need A Breath Of Fresh Air

That’s it. I literally just need to breathe in the fresh air. I’ve been cooped up in my house, in my car, at school, at work. I just want to be able to stand outside for a couple of minutes and breathe in the nice, fresh air.

Just taking a couple of minutes out to breathe and take some time out of the day to not let your mind and limbs run wild. Just something as simple as that can help you out in ways you couldn’t image. Just take in a deep breath of fresh air and then go on with your day.

This actually helps you out. It sends messages to your brain to calm down and relax. So go right ahead, take a minute or two out to just step outside into the nice weather, clear skies with fluffy clouds and B.R.E.A.T.H.E. In and Out.

How does it feel?